I am not who I was…

My personal legacy has been on my mind lately.  Not so much in a material sense…but in the non-material.  When I am no more than a memory…what will that memory be?  Due to an abundance of mistakes and poor choices, my fear is that they, my poor choices, will overshadow all else.  I hope not.

 Many of those reading this note will recognize the name of John Newton.  If you do, what comes to mind?  Perhaps it is the hymn “Amazing Grace”,which he wrote later in his life.  Perhaps it is the fact that during one period of his life he had also been the captain of a slave ship.  Do the mistakes and poor choices at one time in his life overshadow the things that he did right?  

  Or, perhaps, does the combination point to a power for change?  A Power that is sovereign, abounding in grace and patient…not wanting anyone to perish.  I hope so.  And if so…the change will direct others, not to the one who was changed…but to the Changer.  That is the legacy I hope to pass on.

 John Newton wrote:“I am not what I ought to be, I am not what I want to be, I am not what I hope to be in another world; but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am”.  Newton’s “I am” statements point not to himself as the power behind his changed life but the great “I AM”.   The Eternal, Self-existent One who revealed Himself to Moses (see Exodus chapter 3).

 “Amazing Grace” is about a changed life.   A life that was “lost” but now is “found”.  A changed life…a transformed life…a new life.  Beauty out of ashes.

Watch this Beautiful Things – Gungor Lyric Video


One thought on “I am not who I was…

  1. So good to hear from you we’ve been thinking of you and praying for you. God’s grace and forgiveness is always a treasure to everyone.


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